I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Just changed my blogskin. The previous one was like three years old x.x and the current one is so different to be honest. It's like more pink and girly. Yea. Good start? I couldn't find anymore blogskin that I like /:

So yea, I keep thinking about whether or not to confess. I regretted not confessing to Charles then, cause I know if I did, everything will be different. But I still didn't. And thats why I'm full of regrets.

I don't wish to follow my past footsteps and regret like before. So im aiming for before March hols? I don't know when. But I hope I will have the courage too. Even though he doesn't like me. At least I won't regret not trying.

And besides, I have became stronger after Charles. I think. I hope.

Yes I still cry myself to sleep some night. Yes I still wish that you were by my side. Yes I still wish that Charles, you are mine. But what's the point of wishing if none of them will cone true? I think and I think. Is this right?

Immune to the hurt? Nope. Not yet. My heart still does a flip when I come across a song or story similar to what I've gone through. I still feel my eyes swell up and tears forming.

How many guys have I even rejected. Am I already ready to start a new relationship? Am I really stronger this time? I don't know, only time can tell I guess. I dont know if this is sad. I don't know I how I should feel about it. All I know is that, I made a new year resolution to live life without regrets. And so step one, confession time.

I cross my fingers, take a deep breath, and hope for the best.