I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Hmm, so I fell sick on the first of March, when my music CT and chem test fall on. Blessing? At least I can take a short break from all those studies I guess. 9sub is actually that stressful like what they say, but what to do? Just move,on.

Yesterday, Sandy and wanching were talkin about their primaryschool beside me and xuanting. They made xuanting start to talk about the memories I don't want to remember..

She had to talk about you, seriously.

It made my head became heavy, and I was trying hard not to let those nasty things fall.

I am strong, or am I?

It was just so hard to comment without feeling anything. I was so close to breaking down..

So I sang, I sang to my heart's sorrow. 记得 made my cry in the end. Those lyrics caught me. Those lyrics reminded me of you, of us.

谁还记得是谁先说，永远地爱我。
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口。
过了太久没人记得，当初那些温柔。
我和你手牵手，说要一起，走到最后。。

I guess I will have to take a little longer, a little longer to forget the pain, a little longer to accept you're gone, a little longer to be strong.

I know how being in this shit feels. So I think of those, those who confessed. I start talking to them again, but this time, not to make use of them anymore.

I think of others before myself, when can I learn to become more selfish? When can I stop considering others feelings?

Honestly, im so tired. If you had to leave in the end, why did you hold my hand at the start?

You said it was for the better. But is better for you? Cause its becoming worse and worse day by day for me. But, if you feel happy, I guess this pain is nothing.

I would give up everything for your smile.
I would give up everything for your laugh.
I would give up everything for you to not cry again.

But now that you're gone, who will be there to make sure I don't cry? To make sure that I have a shoulder to lean on? To make sure I stand up strong again?

I really don't know anymore.

It's really like im alone. 나 혼자 .