I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

It's the common tests next week. Hmm, haven really started studying yet. But yea, we'll see the results. Next Friday and Saturday there's cca camp! Why is there also a camp on my birthday. Can't I celebrate it with my family? Sighsss.

But hey, changshen said there will be a surprise. So lets waif and see. I hope they don't make mg regret coming for camp)): ;) carine is in my group yay x) I like that girl :') I hope I can make new memories of cchmsnpcc again :')

Today while doing bio notes, got a phonecall to go to CGH cause she might not make it. Scared me to death x.x thank God she is fine now. But how long will she last? Close to a hundred years old, bedridden for 2years already. Soon I suppose. Just not now, im not mentally prepared to lose another family member. Besides, this time round, it is my greatgrandmother. We're so close to each other. Regrettably, I saw her forget who am I. She doesn't remember me anymore. That is just so sad. Its like after the death of her daughterimlaw, she just blanked out. I feel sorry for her..

I dont think I'll be blogging next week cause of commontest. But we'll see. Hmmm. I'm gonna refrain myself from the topic.of.Charles and qing. Lets see how long can I hold it then. Hmm. My determination is just that little. I cant think okay. It's late. And it's been a long day. I should be off to sleep. I cant watch musicbank in Jakarta anyway. Suju jjang. Hope starhub plays it soon, there's Kyu as mc! Hahaha. Okay. Serious. Sleep. Good night.  To anyone who thinks of me.

And lets pray that someone will send me a good morning text message.

Nah, its not gonna happen anymore. Im alone, what is there to expect? ..