I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Of course I'll blog today. It's such a special day. Only today, I can be amazingly nostalgic to actually walk along the roads of poichingschool to reminisce of good old memories.

It's your blessed 15 today. No one actually remembered except me. Hah. Nah I won't forget this date. Too special to even :') remember how we were laughing at the irony of your birthday because you are so not environmentallyfriendly? Hahah. Yeap. Those days.

Soo, I dont wanna count how many days it's been even since the last time I saw you. Too far away, too long ago. But amazingly, every tiny little thing actually caught me. Caught me staring into thin air, caught me smiling at those memories, caught that tear in the corner if my eyes.

How on earth does one actually take to forget someone? I hate myself. So much. To lack the determination to forget you cleanly. But am I so weak, cause my heart melts a little when I hear your name, and then I won't bear to continue that painful path of forgetting you.

Actually, it's not you I wanna forget, it's the thought that you are the most important guy to me. How on earth to you climb up to this position in my heart, so sneakily I didn't even know you're climbing, then when I noticed, damn it's too late. I've sank too much and its like its impossible to save myself again.

So many days passed. I said I'll take one step away from you everyday, I lied. When I took one step back, I take two steps forward. Hopeless me, too very weak in the mind I guess. But I guess my presence means nothing to you.

Those year end messages I send to you for the third year continuously. Hah. You never replied. I don't really care if it's a negative comment, just a reply, can't you? I never know what you're thinking. Why hide? Why don't you express yourself like you did before and have us friends by you? Or are we even friends no more. Hey, im the only person who remembers your birthday, I deserve some credit, some thankyou at the least.

Reply to my messages would you? Everyday I look forward to receiving a text message from an unknown number, you. Since primary6, I wished that day would come. I text you, but you didn't reply. Since then. Till now and forever I guess.

I'll wait, I promise, I'll always update you with my contact details, for you to know that I'll always be here when you need me. Not physically but mentally I promise. For support and encouragement, for comfort and for praises. Yes I'll be here for you.

Just a call/text. I'll be there.

Im your 大姐 sure I'll do anything for you. Just dont tell me you don't need me in your life..

22042013, happy birthday Charles Teo. :')