I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Yeap, im marksman people. Hahaha x) yay only 15/37 got it and im one of them. Hahahah yay x)))

But I deproved from the first live shoot x.x 69 to 67 , ._. Look on the bright side people I am marksman. Hahaha I hope sir choose me for shooting comp . Really wanna go for shooting comp cause its like so cool <3 keke.

Haha. So I found out yesterday also that Edmond found out of this blog. Hah. I never thought someone will look here anymore tbh. So I was a little shocked when he told me he was reading this hah. Scary for one. Awkward for two.

Today we did compo. Hah. My topic was you. But a determined topic I chose. 亲爱的你，再见了。

Said this for 3 years. Been determined for so long, tried so hard but never done it.

I know I have to. But why can't I? Why it's so difficult. Hope after this compo I really can do it. But if tears flow down while writing the compo, does that mean that im just hopeless like that?

Those tears I've shed. This is just so disappointing. Should learn to love myself more and treat myself better. From today onwards. If I could ever be strong enough. If I will not break down too soon.

If.