I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Yea wishlist. Perhaps a list of what I want to achieve by the end of secondary school. I've been living without any goals and ambitions. My life is too dry. I'm doing the same thing everyday. How monotonous. With this wish list, perhaps, I could find light in this dark tunnel of life once again.

⒈To learn to let go all hates.
I tend to hate people very easily. When I hate people, everyone will know who is next in the list. Its really sad how old friends becomes on that list because they left you as a friend for someone who is so bitchy. You sigh in disappointment to hope that the friend changes back to that kind and caring angel that she was. Then you look up and see her bitching with all those judgmental people. Laughing at others misfortune and think she is high and mighty.
With those hatred all around. I tend to shut away from them. To be away from them and those around them. To see a friend drift away because they changed and the friend becomes an enemy because that angel that you played and laughed with, starts to laugh at you. With those trust we had among us, how could you actually spread my past around? Do you guys have just nothin else to talk about? Extreme betrayal brought about that hatred.
I know it's the right thing to do, but I just cant bring myself to do it, to forget about this hatred.

⒉ Frequent class gathering.
With misschong leaving next Monday, cr is no longer complete. Our awesome form teacher leaving us, yes misschong we are a notorious bunch of people who does nothing but to talk, play and prank. But you love us nevertheless. How you threaten to not teach and those countless scoldings. Similarly. We love you no matter what. With misschong no longer in the school, we definitely have to meet up more often to gossip and complain about our common energy the maid VP. After all, if we started the school with a different teacher, I don't think we can be this attached to each other as a whole class. Where other classes actually have to be jealous of how bonded we are. Lets say half the credit comes from you.

⒊ Learn to accept those heartbreaking moments as my past.
How could one actually experience so many heartbreaking moments when we are only 15 thanks. So many times where you just want to slam the door and start screaming and shouting with tears down until you become so tired that you fall asleep but you never knew how tears still continue to fall even while sleeping. You wake up with red puffy eyes yet smiling to the world and putting up a stronger front than before. You are afraid to be weak again now that you are alone. When nobody is there to listen and comfort. You see that the world is meaningless once again because you are holding on to a shadow of the past. While there walk further and further, the shade of shadow slowly disappears. And then it will be gone, sooner or later. But, will this weak heart of mine accept it? I think not, seeing that I have even difficulties trying to let it go. Well, cross my fingers and hope for the best because that's what I want to overcome.

Cheers to a stronger and a more confident me in the near future.