I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Have to remember this dream so here I am. I never had this kind of dreams before and it felt like a sign.

So edmond sends his new year greetings with hope that I get to RI (impossible) to meet charles again. ( hes the only one that supports this stupid feelings I have for him ) . I read it. Felt blessed and fell asleep. 

The same night. I dreamt of Charles. Call it spooky I dont know. But it was so good.

Apparently I went to the same university as him in Australia. ( weird. I never thought of attending college in Australia ) but we met at orientation. I couldn't say anything to him but he was smiling so sweetly. After that he waited outside the auditorium and offered to walk tgt to the hostel ( what this is just a dream.  Don't judge ) and so I looked at him like . Why are you doing this to me again?  And all he said was " you told me for 8 years that we can start as friends again. " ( okay wow yes I said that for 4 years alr but yea ) and he began chuckling to himself and ohmy thats so adorable. And I had to use that opportunity to get his number again. "What kind of friends dont know each others number?" Great counter. And we started talking abt everything. Back to all those childishness and immaturity and how he developed feelings for me (le blush) . He said he sent that message then ( the one that made me cry for like 3 days damn ) intentionality but not sincerely. He never felt that way but he had to send it bc my studies was deeply affected. And he asked to start afresh.  And I accepted and ...

I woke up.

So annoyed but that dream was so beautiful. I wish it will come true but I dont know. It felt so real but 'wishes are only lies' .

I wonder if you had the same dream as me though, hmm. Did we wish upon the same star that night? Will fate bring us together again? ..