I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

My first 2016 entry will be dedicated to my 1 Amethyst kiddos xx ♡

So I volunteered at Punggol View Primary School to help the primary 1 kids settle in their new school. It was such a great experience  and I'm glad I bothered waking up at 6 for them.

Day 1 was cute. It was adorable seeing kids who are just so pure and innocent. 2 kiddos can click and become bffs in like what 1 hour? It was also quite fascinating to see how Miss Vinnie (their form teacher) handle the kids with so much patience. Respect. Though I wish all kids were angels, that ain't true because we have a kiddo who is, well, not really one.

He is a hyperactive child who loves to walk around. At first, I was quite annoyed with him, being all so defiant and stuff. I didn't really talk to him that much. I only told him off when I caught him pushing his friends and threatening to beat them up (scary  for a 6-7 yo). Then I saw him interact with one of us and realize, they are kids, they want attention from older people. He cannot control his emotions and sulk quite a lot. But he doesn't mean evil, he just haven't learnt to express himself in a better way.

I ended off day 1 by meeting the 2 sets of twins with  my favorite baemax Tay twins. There was something about lil Jav  that  makes me want to protect him. Day 1 was heartwarming and made my look forward  to the next day.

Day 2 was okay, just that I caught a flu and was in a horrible position to look after kiddos. The kids are just as rowdy as we went for our school tour. They seem more comfortable  with us now as they will  all fight for our attention and stuff.

Day 3 started in a mess. I had such a horrible headache in the morning due to my flu tablets  and really didn't want to go down. But how can I leave my kids there. So I literally dragged myself down for the kiddos. Day 3 was the day that the hyperactive kid opened up to me, he would come and try to get my attention by the sink (in the classroom quite cool) and would come show me his art work. When he focuses on his work, he really looks like an angel, quietly there and putting his 110%.

Looking after all the kiddos made me think back about  my own p1 life. I realize I cannot remember anything except for the fact that my brother was my p3 buddy, and I sat beside Leon and he will share his colour pencils with me and we will sing 一千年以候 together. Maybe that's when I fell in love with singing and jj hahaha.

Was I like my kiddos, smiley and happily
chattering  away? Did I raise my hands to ask 1001 questions? Did I play with my classmates well? I couldn't remember at all.

But nonetheless, this volunteer work kinda forced me to revisit my own primary school  life (the parts  that I could remember ). I guess I was happy then, life wasn't that complicated yet. I was just contented playing catching during recess and my cool nike waterbottle (yes the spray one that everyone had). With the good comes the bad but no I will try to counter-force myself to not revisit  them ( even though 99.9% of the time I fail)

These 3 days with the kiddos was great. It showed me how respectable primary one teachers are.  It taught me how to interact  with special kids (like another autistic kid in my class ).It reminded me how all, yes ALL of us started out the same - pure, innocent (yet some time some where everything changes ..)

Though  I don't remember all of your names; you guys have been such sweet kiddos to be with for 3 days. My only regret is that we didn't say our actual goodbyes;hope you all can adjust well tmr w/o us guiding you all now.

By the end of Jan,  you all might have forgotten us, but I want thank you 1 Amethyst again for the wonderful and unforgettable experience;thank you for being the true you and showing me much more than I ever knew ( or remembered ) 

xx