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I love to be alone because I find comfort in loneliness.

Saturday, September 2, 2017, 2:35 AM

If you wander back here again

If you wander back here again.

All I have for you is apologies. I'm really really thankful that you reached out to me first. I know my replies were shit and I'd blame it on my weak mentality + overthinking. I know, what's new right? Excuses again.

Truth is I don't think I'd ever be ready for a meet up. I don't know why myself. I can't seem to figure how am I supposed to face you, how my tone should be, should I actually pretend that nothing happened, should I pretend that we are in contact, should I pretend that we are still friends like we were? Overthinking yet again. But I cannot derive the answers to them. I don't want to break down and open closed scars.

Every time I walk about tampines alone, I just become paranoid abt meeting you on the streets since you said you were moving in. Well, at least you said this 7 years ago I have no idea if you actually did. But there's just this little voice in my head just disturbing my mind.

I'm sorry that I didn't reply to your question. I don't know if time is going to be the answer. I really don't know what to do either. I don't know if I should see you as a friend I once knew or as a stranger forming new ties. My overly sensitive and emotional personality really doesn't make it easier to decide.

I'm thankful and sorry. Please don't forgive me.