I hate the city life, everyone is thinking about results, success, wealth. Every conversation can be driven to those materialistic greed and I hate it. I can't even recall a time when my parents asked me anything else rather than my future. Yes, I get that I have nothing drafted up, nothing in plan. Am I worried? Sure. But earning the big money just isn't my priority. Maybe I just lack the competitiveness and the urge to succeed. But I call being able to live a win. To be able to enjoy the simple life will be a home run. I just really think that's all I want from life. But society and their horrible expectations sucks. 

I dream of a simple life, to be able to work to support living, to be able to enjoy the little things, to feel the breeze of the wind, to bite into a great cookie, to be able to listen to my favourite tunes, to be able to watch nhl games, to just live beyond living. 

Its getting a lot tiring to listen to people living for the fame, the money, the reputation. What happen to living for me?

Maybe this city is not right. I don't want fast paced and challenging. I desire slow and quiet, a close knitted community and a deep sense of belonging and loyalty. It just all seem like a dream right now. I just. I don't know. Maybe life should just end now before I become more miserable living in this world.